No Rain ~ No Rainbows

No rain, no rainbows is a very common saying in Hawaii. I’m going to diversify it and apply it to Mondays. Mondays get a bad rap. First day of the week. No more fun and free time on the weekend. The start of another work week. Ick!

Of course this is true if you don’t love what you do. Or it could just be a mood swing. In my case this Monday, May 21st, the day after the new moon and an annular solar eclipse, knocked me off balance. I was feeling some doubt. I know when this happens it’s because I have disconnected from Spirit, i.e., the verticality that helps me to feel grounded and centered. My feelings were not well founded.

I began my morning with my usual rituals: prayer, chanting quietly, tea outside and talk with my husband. He had reminded me of a newsletter from Bob Lefsetz raving about Mick Jagger on SNL. “Let’s find it on the internet”, I proclaimed. While I was waiting for Jered to find the show, a bit of doubt came over me. A regret of not knowing this historic legend was performing on TV on a night we were home. Why were we home on Saturday night, I thought? Why were we not socializing at a party or out to dinner with friends? Maybe this sounds trivial but doubt is a very insidious feeling and can begin invading in the most subtle ways. I was losing my consciousness and beginning to spiral.

Mick Jagger was sensational on SNL. We watched the whole show, uninterrupted by commercials. His performance of “Last Time” with Arcade Fire was stellar. It made me think of how I am beginning to put a band together, one of my life-long dreams. Mick was soloing with ‘other’ bands, not the Rolling Stones. I’ve heard rumors of Keith Richards having poor health. So Mick Jagger waits for no one and dives head first into singing with a band who could be his children! I am paralleling this experience as well. the lead guitar player I am courting is my son’s age. In fact I was scheduled to meet for lunch with a 20-something background singer in just a few hours.

As I prepared myself for this meeting I grumbled to myself, caught in a void of frustration and mild anger. I took it out on my hair which just the day before was trashed by fog when I took a walk at the beach. Pinning it back, I felt depressed. I brushed it to the side; that should bring out some sensuality, but no! For several hours I was stuck in a void. “I’m not going”, I declared to my husband. He listened to me patiently and withheld any reaction. This gave me a moment in which to pull myself together just in time to make the appointment… and am I glad I did! I met a generous and talented beauty from Trinidad who would gladly take the position I offered if it were not for a commitment to work in Hong Kong for three months. We established a lovely harmony and promised to keep in touch.

As I was getting into my car the phone rang. It was Jered inviting me to join he and his friend Phil for a movie: The Avengers. Not my cup of tea but now I was in full participation of life again and back on the earth-plain, ready to live life to the fullest. 2+hours of fun, games and mayhem blew our 3D glasses off. Phil expressed interest to chill-out over dinner. I think all of our ears were slightly shattered from all the explosive sounds in the film so we agreed to have dinner close by.

We sat at an Italian Bistro called Il Pastaio and leisurely ate and talked until after 10. I told Phil about Mick Jagger being on SNL and he asked me if I ever read Keith Richards book. I said yes. He said, “Well, you know he died in 1995!” Jered and I were struck by his remark. We gazed at him puzzled. Phil began to smirk and continued to say,”Well, you said you read the book, so you know he only consumed the best drugs. He died in 1995… he’s just slow to to react!!! With that, I bid you goodnight and good day. Be patient with the blues. No Rain~No Rainbows.